Thursday, January 28, 2010
loneliness knows me by name
haven't been posting for awhile now. but right now i feel like a dam ready to burst and if these words cant be expressed i feel i might burst...
i dont know when it started and how, but when i started falling for her i truly believed that this would be my best chance of success, after time after time of rejections. but she proved to be the largest setback i faced. i knew i shouldn'e have kept my hopes up and should have juz concentrated on my army life and getting it over with without much mishap.
i dont know what i'm feeling inside of me now, maybe when i saw the picture and those fated words my feelings went with them. i just feel so empty and numb now. it feels like a cold flame, burning so cold and full of emptiness.
as i know from past experience, life will still go on, but right now, it feels like the longest night of my life. i feel lost like some one has stolen my compass and map and left me some where in the artic.
even as i write this i wonder, would there be a special someone for me somewhere out there, somehow i'm beginning to think that after all these failures, i'm never going to meet her, my destined other half....
posted at [10:56 PM]
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L3oN!zH
Leon Lee
18+
Male
Scorpio
St. Hilda’s Primary, class of 6/7 ’02
St. Hilda’s Secondary, class of 4F ’06
Meridian Junior College, class of 07S206
Affiliates :
Table Tennis & Drama Club (SHPS)
Badminton, Golf & Student Council (SHSS)
Wushu (MJC)
Pasir Ris Elias Youth Executive Committee
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